Tired Confusion Or Real Thoughts?

I'm not sure if it's because i'm exhausted and it's 2 am and i still can't sleep or if they're real thoughts running through my mind that i'll wake up and still be seriously contemplating them, but i figured i might as well get them out.

Have you ever sat back and honestly wondered if you've ever touched someone's life? I've been thinking about it, and tonight i was going through my facebook and thinking about how i used to be so close to so many of them and how each and every one that i was close to, and even those i wasn't close to, have touched my heart deeply and left footprints that'll be there forever.

If there was a way for me to know that i've touched ONE life. And i know that a lot of you are thinking, 'oh well you touch your daughters life every day, you're her mom!' but i'm talking about something different than that. Something equally deep on a different level. A friend or a stranger or someone that you've never known well but have always known of. I guess a lot of the time i just really wonder what people's true impressions of me are.

I've always wanted to change lives. Most of the time a child's life, but more and more lately, i've been seeing my friends so down and depressed about life not dealing them want they want out of life and getting so angry and frustrated. I know, i've been there. Sometimes i still am there. I've had countless meaningful conversations with a lot of my close and personal friends, and even friends that aren't that personal. If someone asks for advice i always try and give the best that i can, regardless of if i practice what i preach, because let's be honest, it's a lot harder than it sounds. But out of all those friends, all those conversations, have i made a difference?

Is there anyone out there that was changed, moved, inspired by me? I guess it's just one of those things that i've wondered. We come into contact with thousands of people over our lifetime. And all i want, is to leave this world knowing that one life is changed because of me.

Hopefully that made sense haha i'm rather tired.

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