National Remember Your Single And The Men Forgot You Day

Who ever thought of Valentine's day seriously hated the single people out there. For the 23rd year in a row i'm alone on Valentine's day. No boyfriend, no flowers, no special someone, no date, no love, nothing. I honestly don't know why i even bother to try and make plans or think to myself 'Maybe this year will be different, maybe this year i'll finally get a little spoiled and have someone just show me how much they care about  me, but ugh, it NEVER happens.

If i get a boyfriend before Valentine's day we break up before it get here. Seriously, one year it was the day before Valentine's day. The only year that i actually 'had a Valentine' was Taurus just before we were going to get married. I was sicker than sick with a fever, throwing up and just feeling horrible. He did NOTHING. Oh wait, he got a hotel room and hoped to get laid all weekend long. Obviously, that didn't happen. No flowers, no dinner date, nothing planned at all. Just the room. And on Valentine's DAY he disappeared for 4 hours and came back with a bag of random love day stuff and just threw it on the bed and said 'I'm not good at this, here it is.' And proceeded to sit and watch tv. I mean really!?

Regardless of whomever i'm with its like they're incapable of showing any type of emotion. The guys that i end up really caring about have serious issues and the great amazing i'll-show-you-all-the-love-in-the-world guys i just can't find it in myself to have that passionate connection with them. Maybe i'm the one who has the issues... In every relationship i'm the common denominator.

*Sigh*

One year i'll get an amazing guy who doesn't feel obligated to do all those things that 'you're supposed to' on V-day, but he'll WANT to. I guess i just really don't get it. I try and try and try but it never ever works out...

Every year this day always makes me ache for something that i've never had and probably won't have for years and years and years. Love. Even if i get close, i always find a way to mess it up royally. Ugh, whatever. Instead of going out to a nice dinner all dressed up and getting roses or a planned romantic night out i'm staying at home and more than likely going to spend my night like any other night... writing or sleeping. Lovely.

Forgive me for being a lonely bitter woman at the moment, but everyone's entitled to their feelings, and this, unfortunately, is how i feel right now.