Today I made an awesome realization. Or at least I think it's an awesome one. As I was going through my "Weheartit" profile and looking at different pictures, quotes, and other random girly things I found a quote with a little girls face next to it saying, "Don't say 'I wish' - Say 'I will'".
That really got me thinking. How many times have I told myself, "Oh I wish I could lose weight." or "I wish I could save my money." I wish, I wish, I wish... that's all I've ever told myself in my mind. Can you imagine the possibilities if i replaced 'I wish' with 'I will'?! "I will lose weight" "I will eat healthy" "I will save money" "I will be a better mom" "I will keep going when times get hard" I will, I will, I will!
The more that I think about it the more it dawns on me how much of my life I've wasted being upset, angry or hurt with the world or specific people in it. Soldiers have fought and DIED for my freedom to go out and live my life the way that they can't anymore. Kids and adults alike have taken their lives or had their lives taken from them from bullying or not being able to overcome those insecurities and fears that other had drilled into their heads of them not being good enough. What am I doing to their memory by being bitter and pessimistic? I'm insulting them.
I have the ability to get up out of bed with a skip in my step and a song in my heart, some thing that a lot of people have died wishing they could do. Happiness isn't about what you have or who you're dating, it's not even about the friends you spend your day with or the family members in your life that you love unconditionally.
Happiness is about CHOOSING to smile, sing, laugh and dance through out your day DESPITE all the terrible things going on. It's a state of mind, not a destination. You could be married to the man of your dreams, in a beautiful house with nice cars, tons of fancy clothes and not have any financial problems whatsoever - BUT - You could still be anything but happy.
IDK where all of this came from, and to be quite blunt, I don't give a damn. All I know is that it really touches and warms my soul to know that I can let it go. It's going to be a struggle on a daily basis for me and I know I'm going to have a really hard time with it, but it's time. To let all of my negative emotions go and embrace God, Jesus and all the love in the world and pass it on.
It's time to build up the world, not be afraid to live in it.
